Spotting

I started spotting yesterday afternoon during a particularly challenging parent meeting. It sux. Right now it's only pink spotting, but I had a little bit of darker spotting this morning. I called the doctor and she told me to put my feet up and call her back if it gets red or heavy. I'm also having cramping, which adds to the stress.

I'm freaking out. It is so hard to remain calm when you know what this could mean. I keep trying to tell myself that if things are going to turn out bad, there is nothing I can do to change it. I keep trying to think about all my friends who have had spotting during the 1st trimester and everything turned out fine. I cried in the shower this morning. I just don't know what this means.

I have been praying a lot, too. Not just for this baby to be safe but for the strength and calm to get through whatever this is. I just know that its going to be hard for me to concentrate today with my students. I would call out but we have contractually obligated Curriculum Night tonight (open house is a more common name for it) until 7:30 this evening. Fun.

I just hope that I don't have to call the doctor back...

5 weeks 1 day

I still can't believe that I'm actually pregnant. It's just unbelievable...

My dear husband can't seem to keep his mouth closed though, so now that our entire town knows about it I'm a little worried that something will happen. I'm trying to deal with those emotions without being irrational, but irrationality appears to be a symptom of pregnancy, lol.

Right now my symptoms include on and off cramping, a little nausea, fatigue (I take a nap every afternoon, just like my grandparents, lol), and some mood swings. There has only been one casualty of my mood swings though, poor M. As of today, my new symptom is vurping. I know you're all jealous.

I'm going to try and get M on board with the weekly belly pics, but right now he seems to think that's cheesy. We'll see about that...

+ Blood test!

Just got the results that my blood test was positive! My primary care wouldn't do a BETA because she is not an OB or a GYN, just internal medicine.

I also made my OB appointment for September 25, but I don't think that day can come fast enough! Hopefully, because I'm back to work the time will fly by.