Spotting

I started spotting yesterday afternoon during a particularly challenging parent meeting. It sux. Right now it's only pink spotting, but I had a little bit of darker spotting this morning. I called the doctor and she told me to put my feet up and call her back if it gets red or heavy. I'm also having cramping, which adds to the stress.

I'm freaking out. It is so hard to remain calm when you know what this could mean. I keep trying to tell myself that if things are going to turn out bad, there is nothing I can do to change it. I keep trying to think about all my friends who have had spotting during the 1st trimester and everything turned out fine. I cried in the shower this morning. I just don't know what this means.

I have been praying a lot, too. Not just for this baby to be safe but for the strength and calm to get through whatever this is. I just know that its going to be hard for me to concentrate today with my students. I would call out but we have contractually obligated Curriculum Night tonight (open house is a more common name for it) until 7:30 this evening. Fun.

I just hope that I don't have to call the doctor back...