And the saga continues...

Just got back from my follow-up appointment.  The dr. wasn't great.  She basically told me again that "it looks like you've had a miscarriage."  REALLY????? Is that what's been going on for over a week!!!!!!  Thank you for clearing that up.  I have to go for 2 more blood tests to make sure that my BETA is returning to zero so I don't need a D&C.  On Monday, my beta was a 225, which is down by more than half which is a good sign.

I asked her if, since its been a year that we've been trying, if we should start going for test or anything.  Her response, "But you've conceived.  So there's no problem, you are considered normal.  Hopefully it won't take another year for the second."  WHAT!!!  I was completely not expecting her to say that, nor did I have the realization that it might take another year to get pregnant, again.  It just brought me back down to depressed, stressed, and anxious.  Thank you for that.  I guess its reality and I need to move on, but I feel like I'm back at the bottom of the hill, or down in the ditch at the bottom of the hill.

Needless to say, I will be looking for another OBGYN for when I do get pregnant, and possibly in a few more months to see if they will run some tests.  We had already decided to wait until at least January to start searching for more options and getting testing done, but now it just seems hopeless.  Can I really go through another year of all this?