It's amazing how much your life can change in one instant. I woke up Saturday morning having an internal conflict about testing. I knew I had 2 internet cheapies in my "bag" and I couldn't decide if I wanted to test or not. I thought, "it would be good to just confirm negative, but why do you have to test if you know it will be negative?" Because I didn't chart this cycle I have no proof of good timing, or ovulation at all, so why did I need to torture myself?
Eventually I decided just to take a test, it was there, and then I would be able to move past the BFN and not wonder for the next few days, if AF didn't show. I peed in a cup and dipped the stick. I had a hard time walking away from the test once I took it so I sat there and watched. Nothing. So I got up and went back to bed for 2 minutes and went back to check the test (within the 5 minute time limit). I swear there was the faintest of faint lines. I asked M if he saw it and he said he did.
I threw on some clothes and drove to CVS. I cried the whole way there. Could it really be positive? It can't be. I'm imagining things and I shouldn't get my hopes up. For over a year I always thought "this is the cycle" and then was completely disappointed when it wasn't. So I was preparing myself for the worst. I bought 2 boxes of HPT's; digitals and First Response Early Response. Just to be sure.
When I got home, I dipped the digital into the cup, and less than one minute later this is what came up:
I couldn't believe it. M jumped on me when I showed it to him and I cried, and cried, and cried. You know God must have a sense of humor. I can't believe it, I'm actually knocked up!!!!!!
We decided to tell our parents right away. M's dad was excited, his mom jumped up and down and hugged us and cried. It took her a few minutes to figure out what we were talking about when we told her that our niece and nephew might have a new cousin on the way. My mom and dad cried and hugged me when I showed them the picture of the positive test. My mom couldn't believe that after all my worrying that I didn't need to worry at all. I was already pregnant.
Needless to say, I'm canceling my appointment with the RE for Friday and hopefully I can get in tomorrow for a BETA just to confirm. As the ladies from the bump reminded me, Disney really is a magical place!