Since I've been back to work for 3 days now, I can say it has been great and terrible all rolled into one.
For whatever reason, my mommy brain has finally kicked in and I can't remember anything. On Monday, I left my breast pump at home and had to drive to get it. On Tuesday, I left my cell phone at school. On Wednesday, I forgot my ATM code, and still can't remember it. Not to mention I locked myself out of my classroom at least 6 times in the last 3 days.
Also, getting ready in the morning is a task. I didn't realize how much harder it would be to get out of the house in a timely fashion with a baby. I get up at 5:30 and try to be completely ready by 6:30 - bags packed, clothes ready, lunch packed, etc. But it seems to take different amounts of time each day. UG.
Then I get the little guy up at 6:30 to eat, which is hard for him. It's funny. He already has the "seriously mom, it's only 6:30" face when I get him out if the crib. But I love to snuggle with him before I leave. He's so snuggly when he's tired.
Also, the cloth diapers are a little challenging to get together and get in the bag. I will admit, this has been the hardest part about it so far. I usually just leave the covers in the baby's room and then stuff them as I need them at home, but now I need to stuff before hand and it's just like folding laundry. I tend to procrastinate. I will get the hang of it, I know.
On top of all of the adjustment, Ezra is getting the beginning of what might be a diaper rash, so we're using sposies anyway so we can use cream. But it's been 24 hours and it still looks red. I feel bad for him!
Also, I'm getting a cold or some other unidentifiable sickness that makes me tired and annoyed. I started my period again. Yes folks, that only 2 WEEKS after my first post-partum period. I'm crampy, moody, and tired from that, too. Just ask Mike, I'm a total picnic this week.
I have to say that being away from him during the day was easier than I expected. I'm pretty busy at school, which keeps my mind off of it, and I only had the urge to cry a few times on the first day. I do enjoy getting out of the house and socializing with some different people and I look forward to seeing him when I get home. It makes me appreciate being a mom and pay attention so much more when I do have him there.
Not to mention having child care that I totally trust helps, too. I'm not worried that he's not getting what he needs.
Ezra had a little bottle adjustment issues, too, but it seems like we've mediated that with trying out some different bottles and nipples. Hopefully, we're out of the woods!
In other news, my BFF got engaged over the New Year! Wahoo! Which means wedding planning stuff is in my future, which we all know I love. So, Bridal Expo this weekend. Exciting! Hopefully I won't be too sad leaving him with a babysitter on the weekend, too.